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"Only that in you which is me can hear what I'm saying. "

I believe those who are seeking the truth and doubt those who find it.

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it took me a year to learn who i was, a month to get myself busy, a week to fall in "love", a day to realize everything was too late yet early, an hour to see how dull my life has become, a minute to understand how meaningless empty knowing what a fling was, and a second to accept all these facts.

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everything's no longer obscure though. i understand he is and has been just a friend, at least to him. all this time i was in denial, i guess. all these conversations we've had so far that i thought were special were special to him as well but just in a friendly "you're awesome baby" way. the kisses and hugs meant nothing but "oh let's enjoy the moment". the hope that i had for the "next time" has been broken down into pieces but i finally realized what my problem was.

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i need the truth: truth about love, truth about life, truth about myself, truth about this world, and truth about what right before my eyes. i guess after all, i was living a "carpe diem" life in the summer as i wanted.

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Curses voi ed il mio destino
..I curse/despise your destiny

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"Jack, there is no love.. It's just a trick of the brain,

mixed with hormones and chemicals " - Heartbreakers

do we break up because we stop loving each other

or do we stop loving each other because we break up?

does my treasure disappear when i lose it

or do i lose it when my treasure disappears?

does pain come from memory and remembering

or does memory come from pain?
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the fact that i'm so empty inside makes everything around me unreal.
i'm moving but i'm not, i'm dreaming but i'm not,

i'm talking but i'm not, i'm laughing but i'm not,

i'm wondering but i'm not, i'm thinking but i'm not..

i guess, having no light to follow is the loneliest feeling in the world
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back to the future,

ignore what's in front of you, be real

Let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.
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