my special t:

maria carla
freja
chanel iman
anja rubik
agyness
coco rocha

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if you are too young to understand things, one day you'll come to understand.
but if it is too late for you to understand, then you can never understand.

never.. and that becomes the saddest story of life
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MATH/EQUATIONS NEED TO KNOW FOR LIFE

1. LOVE
Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy

2. OFFICE ARITHMETIC
Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime

3. SHOPPING MATH
A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need.

4. GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

5. HAPPINESS
To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot, never try to understand her.

6. LONGEVITY
Married men live longer than single men do,
but married men are a lot more willing to die.

7. PROPENSITY TO CHANGE
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.

8. DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE
A woman has the last word in any argument!
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

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i'm feelin' : keren ann - seventeen and end of may,

the teenagers - homecoming, ladytron - abercrombie

The more I see, the less know.

The more I think, the less I understand.
The more I try, the less I become confident.

"truth is rarely pure and never simple"

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i despise people without subjectivity.
it leads to endlessly mimicking, and ultimately losing your own identity. i'm frankly so sick of people changing their interests and mind abruptly just for the surrounding others. depending and relying on others, living your life for the others that they don't even want..it's immature, it's sad, but i have no one but these people around me. they're empty, useless, foolish, and unfortunate..

i miss psychos who know who they are, who understand what i am, who respects my interests, who talk and listen, who never complain aboutthings daily, who stand on their own unreliably, who look for justice and peace,who teach me life lessons, who need no explanation, whom i can trust and look up to.

where are you in my life...

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the lonliest person in the entire world is

a person without anyone who can tell the truth

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just give me the god damn milk

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When a man loves a woman,

he breaks her down, he steals her lust,

and.. wears her out.

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Why am I so afraid of love..

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a perfect way to spend the last day of summer: the beach! yeyy

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Happiness does not exist. It just lies in your imagination. At times you feel you are happy because of certain events or people. When you laugh, you might feel happy for a bit but that's obviously temporary. Feeling content momentarily or laughing continuously does not mean you are happy. If you think you are happy - maybe because you are at the moment - I believe that's illusion. In the book, Hector’s Voyage or the Search for Happiness, Francois Lelord says that you feel unhappy when you compare yourself to the others. I look back at what I did in the past, I guess until now I've always thought I was the happiest when I was younger, when I was in this place, when I was with that person. But the truth is, it's just an illusion. There's no such thing as a true happiness. You think about the future, your imagination of yourself being famous or successful or what not might make you happy but it's just an illusion. Even if you reach that goal, you won't be happy. Hermann Hesse says through Siddartha that in order to attain nirvana, you need an experience - the struggle or pursuit to attain happiness. I guess I need that struggle to grow up, but today really, I wondered if happiness, that illusion, ever existed in my life. I think I've completely wasted all my life and time that was given, with worthless, shitless things. I felt like I've been emotion-less for the longest time. I've been killing myself, my life, and the others.

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